الأحد، 23 نوفمبر 2008

letters to the unknown.......the 3rd letter


Dear unknown ,
iam too scared and feeling lonely like nv before....iam tired of waiting for u....iam tired of staying alone in this world for another long tiring day....i wana feel ur presence...i wana smell u ...i wana feel u when u're not there...i hate it when u're gone...i hate it when i know ur not real...when i know ur not there...it hurts when i know that ur presence is a fake illusion i've created so not to feel alone...that those late night chats was just me talking to myself...when i know that being lonely is a fact and not a choice i can make when ever i need to...and i wana believe those letters are going to be read one day...i really wana believe...but everyday passes by...scare me more...iam afraid to grow old writing such letters...iam afraid to grow old alone !!..
i search for u....i want to see u again...yes i miss u...and i went on searching for u in each and every eye i look at...but i nv found u...i search for u..in everyone i talk to...in each word....each look...but u're always not there....and i wonder...will i ever be able to find u...to kiss those eyes i miss so much...
i wana feel save....warm...i wana feel weak so for u to feel my weakness and protect me...and i wana feel strong bec u're always there beside me...i wana feel those extremely wild feelings i hear about....this shiver i always feel while watching a love scene in a movie in the middle of the night....i wana find u so i can sit and talk with u for hours and nv get bored for running out of topics...cause u...and just u....is the only one i can talk to about everything...and in everything
dear unknow i promised myself not to stop writing those letters i write for u...they are not helpful as i thought they are going to be...cause everytime i come back and read one of those letters i wrote...i feel them again...and this feeling of loneliness inc...and i miss u more...but....i cant stop what connect me with u....or what i think connect me with u...i cant stop telling u how i feel...i cant stop loving u..
i cant stop being with u...cause i feel u...i feel ur presence...i smell u in each breath i take...and i always feel u there...in every step i take...u're real...even if every thing around me told me ur not...ur real...i believe in u !!

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